Be_YunG'S BloG

1 day trip to kundasan...

2009-07-19T19:18:00.014+08:00

sienz..

2009-07-18T23:21:00.006+08:00

The weather is damn hazy..

On top of the rainbow..

Some island near tip of borneo..

Fishing Again~~

2009-06-30T19:20:00.007+08:00

Gonna rain..

Black grouper again..Nice~

Abang yusri get a big white fish!!!

Fishing fishing...~

2009-06-29T17:59:00.002+08:00

Yo..this is the little pity+ a lil bit stupid black grouper i get yesterday when i went to fishing..today feel bit moody..coz exam result came out..the malaysia paper i fail air law and electric..=.=..haiz...

Ceremony of Hanger..

2009-06-27T13:44:00.002+08:00

Me with cap. Htun..my current flying instructor..a funny old man also..but when take picture..pls don kidding with him..he will very serious in take picture ..lol!!

Me with my favorite flying instructor Cap. Thien..today the ceremony was quite boring and hot sial..erm..sorry my tittle was writting ceremony of hanger but i din't take any photo of the ceremony coz it's not interesting at all..look at the pic i really gain lot weight..haiz..sandakan..beside eat..i really don know wat can i do..lol..suddenly feel like wan to go fishing..coz long time never fish d..

exam finished...

2009-06-25T18:57:00.002+08:00

Finally finished exam...but doesn't feel happy...coz i fail the 2 uk paper..haiz..gonna pay rm1400 to resit again..stress..and i gonna sick soon..the pic i take i saw the cloud look like the mushroom..just like the nuclear boom one..erm..a lil bit la..lol..

Another day...

2009-06-05T22:21:00.003+08:00

This tree give me a feel of the beauty of dying...

Sandakan town..

19 days more to exam..

2009-06-04T19:10:00.002+08:00

Today just solo flight as usual nothing special i saw a rainbow on my way to training area..i think the pic cant really see clear..19days more to exam date..a bit stress bout it..haiz..

Navigation 7

2009-06-02T19:53:00.010+08:00

Raining..

Gps and map..

Nearby Telupid..

Raining in telupid..

Solo night flying..

2009-05-28T20:44:00.004+08:00

Nice colorful cloud..

Taxi at the back of ATR..

This landing was made by captain thun..after landed i went for my solo..i did take some night picture of sandakan town..but my camera pixel is not good enuff..cant really see what is it..so i don't upload those picture..anyway..night flying was so excited..the runway look so beautiful..

Night flying started...

2009-05-26T18:37:00.005+08:00

I don know what this aircraft name..but it look very nice..

Just some picture of night flying..i will get more night flying picture in the next solo flight..night flying feeling is nice..and the landing is a lil bit different..

sienz...

2009-05-21T19:16:00.004+08:00

My fren lucas and huzaini found out the fuel pressure low and lucky they found out early..if not i think they will in the ground now..thanks god..

skinny's baby

skinny the big one..i saw her when she is in the age of her baby..now..she got 4 baby d..and i still haven't graduate..=.="..

some nice picture of my flying today~

2009-05-14T19:36:00.005+08:00

I fly on this island today..i don't know what it name is..but the sea water there look very clean^^

See..the water clean rite?feel like wanna have a trip on this island..Se round by the cloud..

After landed and taxi to the apron..

The cloud picture of today..

2009-05-13T21:08:00.006+08:00

Today went mutual with thiru..the cloud look so nice..

FINALLY GET MY PPL LICENSE...

2009-05-11T21:22:00.007+08:00

This cloud look like a jelly fish..

Finally today get my ppl license..hehe..and below is my mutual flying with Fitri..er..the video in my fon is normal one..but don know why when copy to my comp..the video become lay down..

My 1st landing touch and go..

Full stop landing..tomorrow will fly mutual and solo..a lil bit tired..

Girls always never satisfy with their body figure..

2009-05-07T20:04:00.001+08:00

Girls always say themselves fat and wanna diet although they r slim and fit..

High tech..

2009-05-06T20:38:00.003+08:00

This device quite high tech..but i think it will scared me if i drive at the night...

My flying with cap thun.

2009-05-05T21:36:00.005+08:00

Finally today i got flying with Cap. thun..this video is taken by my classmate Lucas..he be my passenger in this flight.

My 1st landing touch and go..asrar..u can imagine now when the time i sick and he keep on like this..hahahaha..but today i didn't sick...as usual..i just keep on smilling and "yes sir"..

2nd landing touch and go..anyway..after class cap. thun said i can solo flight tomorrow..but also have to depend on my tomorrow performance..

God damn IFAS BEST MANAGEMENT EVER IN MALAYSIA!!

2009-05-04T19:47:00.003+08:00

Today wake up early in the morning 6am..prepare everything went to airport..holy shit..those officer havent reach yet..my fly as per shedule was started at 7am..waiting there with my classmate lucas and CAP. Htun..almost 1 hours(8am) waiting for the officer came to open the gate..who know when the officer reach there..he told us the fuel havent come yet..so can't fly..WTF..if the fuel havent come yet..why don't u inform us early that flight cancel??always ask us to be disiplin but how student can be disiplin since ur management like this shit??so cap. htun also piss off d..and we insist wanted to fly since the piper still got fuel left..after 1 hours we enter the cockpit and then start doing pre-flight check and then request for engine start up..start up approve but when i try to start the engine..the engine cant start due to low battery power..WTF again..inside the cockpit was so hot..and wasting our times for the whole morning and we get nothing..what a good management+maintanence..

Blame on myself...

2009-05-03T02:38:00.004+08:00

went to Black jack again..just wanted to finish the bottle that we left yesterday..met some of the junior..and the black pearl(only my secondary sch fren know who is she)..saw the way she dance make me feel really omg..i chat with her today afternoon..i said i gonna leave her..but actually i din..i just cant..especially when i heard the song of "heart beat" from lee hom even the story of wolverine and the moon...just don know why she's like a bit mad when i talking about the yi ya yi ya..im not teasing her..just when i think of that..that remind the happy time when im talking to her..that remind me of how cute she is..at least is happy and cute for me..but seem like she doesnt like i remember all those thing..so i decide to promise her that i will forget all the memory that i had to her..it's quite hard for me..but there is nothing i can do..sometimes im really hate the story behind that girl..why she wanted to use her pic..but everything had already happened..i just can blame myself stupid..

Wolverine origin..

2009-05-02T03:04:00.005+08:00

Today went movie and Black Jack again...Wolverine origin really very nice..i love the native american story about wolverine and the moon were in love [Coacuatchoo(wolverine). there were two spirits, the Moon and Coacuatchoo, and they were in love. One day, a trickster spirit tricks Coacuatchoo into going to the mortal realm to bring back flowers for the Moon spirit, however, having left the spirit realm, Coacuatchoo can never go back, forever longing for his lost love..]...just the ending make me feel sad..just like the story of wolverine and the moon...they will be apart forever although both of them love each other...i admire wolverine so much..

Black Jack again..today bit sienz la..no people at all..we just drink and sing..4 guys..u can imagine how sienz was it..lolz..

Nice..

2009-04-30T00:18:00.001+08:00

PUNJABI VS HINDU

2009-04-27T21:57:00.005+08:00

Lol today my class mate Thirumani an indian fella tease on Gurjeet on this 10+years punjabi song(telur telur tu)..and dancing somemore..

And then we found another hindu song(beli lah boat) and then Gurjeet revenge on Thirumani..dancing much more funny than Thiru...

Just now went to play footsal..seriously...not really like footsal..i just enter the game for not more than 20 minute..and then my leg get injured by kena one of the IRON MAN(we call them iron man because when they cross the road..they always lai lai han..like their body made from iron..) "bo lo koi"..my leg straight away cramp and damn pain..=.=

Nice punjabi remix & Why chris brown beat Rihanna

2009-04-26T21:21:00.004+08:00

Damn this guy was so creative..lolz

Nothing special...

2009-04-26T02:58:00.013+08:00

Today just nothing special..went to play basketball and then went back home..dinner..then i wait her to online..cause i wanted to sent her some song that she wanted..but at last she din't on and she did message me that her line was bad..so she can't manage to online..i feel happy that she will message let me know..after that..i went to a pub name BLACK JACK for a drink with my classmate lucas and a new friend which know from basketball..quite high we drink till although just 3 guys..lolz..i met some of my secondary school junior...

unusual..

2009-04-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

Last night i slept early..i think around 9pm i slept..till the next day morning..the whole night i had a nightmare...bloody hell zombie again...don't know why every time i my nightmare also zombie..damn..morning wake up..went to school..i was silent..till my classmate doesn't notice that i was in the class.lolz..but the class dismiss today cause they have meeting with those France people...so went back home..i sleep again..don't know why i feeling tired..at 4pm we went to play basketball..the sun damn hot..we play till 7pm..back home took shower and dinner..i feel so headache..maybe cause of the sun just now..today i think i speak less than 10 sentences..

Just as usual...class..zz

2009-04-23T18:12:00.006+08:00

Cap. SAW..

My classmate GURJEET SINGH~~Where you hide the boom!!lolz~

Cap. ZAW...

This picture give me a feel like we are living under the sea..

Raining...
Recently i really don't know why my mom keep on asking me why i look like ngong ngong after i back from kk..i feel really weird..i really change??but i don't think i got ngong ngong ah..

Another boring day...

2009-04-22T23:16:00.003+08:00

Today..there is a new student name Terrance..this fella is quite lucky..cause he can join our 1st batch..our school really damn unfair..but this fella sometime really stress us up...just like today..he ask our captain some stupid question...
Terrance:Sir..why aircraft have to fly at high altitude?
Cap. Zaw:It is because less fuel consumption..economic..
Terrance:why we can fly at 10000 ft but they still want to climb till FL250?
Cap. Zaw:It is because at higher altitude..you can avoid some bad weather..and you can gain more speed cause of low density..and less fuel consumption..economic..
Terrance:So what is the main point??
Cap. Zaw:ECONOMIC.
Really make us LOL that time..and today finally i saw our junior..3rd batch..a fella..look really TLO(hakka)...seriously i feel really tired cause everyday have to wake up in the morning and class till the evening..if class till 2 or 3pm i still acceptable..but..till 5pm..really sienz..and the way Cap. zaw teaching..i really can't follow up..cause he will jump this page..and then suddenly back to that page..really make me blur..

Sienz....

2009-04-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

This is our prof..seriously i really not really like him..cause i feel he is so fake..and when he is teaching..he always tell us some story or joke..but it's not funny at all..every time just himself alone laughing there..and we all just keep silent..lolz..last night i din't sleep at all..cause fixing my bloody mobile..till this morning i though everything was ok..but after 2 hours like that..it get hang again..really don know what happened to it..but finally just i fix it!!!i change the bloody hell HardSPL and flash it with others rom..look cool also~^^

Mobile problem...

2009-04-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

Started from last night..my friend name's frank already started to help me fix my phone cause we using the same phone..the phone keep on hang and when i plug it into my comp..it cant show up my phone storage although it is connected..and just now it keep show up "image unsigned bla bla bla"..cause we flash to some unsigned rom...lol..why i wanted to do it??cause the unsigned rom look more cool...finally till just now we manage to fix it..i hope it will be ok..if the phone inside break d..then..really can use my phone to "sip" table leg...lolz..start from tomorrow i think i will bit busy d...cause class start at morning 7am..till evening 6pm..damn tired..they wanted expedite us..our cock story teller cap. syed today he said we will graduate on 15th of november..but i don't think so..cause we have to take exam..and then we have to fly somemore have to depend on weather sometimes...estimate it before chinese new year we can graduate i already very happy..only one thing make me quite excited..it's about navigate to bintulu..after finish this single engine..we will fly the twin engine~~will fly to bintulu and then stop there for 1 night and fly back to sandakan..interesting huh~really cant wait for that time~~

Bahala Island fishing trip..

2009-04-19T20:41:00.020+08:00

The one with red cap is our ABANG YUSRI the organizer of this trip..i usually go fishing with him..he is a nice guy..

Our departure place..SIM SIM bridge number 14.

Nearby Bahala Island view

Im so interested in that 2 hole..its like a big nose~lolz

Start our fishing competition d..that fella is Abang Yusri friend..quite a pro fishing man..

My fishing place view...

This is all the fish we get..got 1 quite big..but i think we gave it to the boat man..

After finished fishing at 4 something..we decided to stop fishing and went to the beach..

Some picture of the view from the beach..

My class mate, our technician(jus) , our operation officer(saiful) & abang yusri playing..

My classmate...

Saiful, my classmate and me(the fat one)..lolz

Leaving Bahala Island..

Sunset..

Missing her...

2009-04-19T02:41:00.002+08:00

Today nothing special..morning wake up..online..have lunch..and then just wait for the time for fishing or basketball..but fishing cancel..they said tomorrow will go to bahala island fishing..so me and my housemate went to play basketball..this 2 weeks i slim down 4kg..its a good news for me..but not more than 20 minute..the sky seem very dark d..and strong wind...started to rain..just started warm up body only then force to back home..after that...my mom da bao some food for my dinner..it taste nice..seafood..haha..my favorite prawn...after that..the actual plan was clubing..but 2 of our friend get sick...so cancel..me and lucas just went to have some drinks..the pic above is a pub name VOGUE..nice renovation...not much of people..good for drink..before went out for drink i did chat with my secondary school friends...kerry..talk about her..haha..that really remind me of her...haiz..what can i do??she also feel very suprise that im really loving a girl..cause for her im just a playboy..but actually im not..they judge me wrong..i miss her so much..i don't know she did view my blog or not...i don't know what is her respond..but she is special for me..i just hope everything go fine on her..

Low cost airlines funny commercial..

2009-04-17T18:03:00.000+08:00

No Tittle...

2009-04-17T14:57:00.002+08:00

Captain Thun brief us in the briefing room..to explain 2 things..he keep on repeat and repeat almost 1 hour...make me start feel sleepy..lolz..but he is a nice instructor~

Sandakan control tower..

Inside control tower..

View from control tower..

The radio they use to communicate with us..

Piper warrior..

My friend lucas flying..

Sandakan town..

Bahala island..

Lastly me and my ex room mate james****(WE ARE NOT GAY)....today i can't get my turn to fly..cause due to the fuel quantity is not enough for all of us to fly..cap. thun said i will be flying on next week..so today me and james just enter lucas flight as a passenger...

Streamyx bill cost rm4489=.="

2009-04-16T16:54:00.000+08:00

Finally today..i feel better from sick..so i went to fly this morning..looking back of the small EAGLE 150B..i really feel that it's just for kid..lolz..easy to control..

This is the piper warrior i flew this morning..quite a nice aircraft..the control is different from the EAGLE zai..can't manage to take the aircraft nearer cause im a bit busy for flying..the rudder and the brake is separated..not like the eagle zai..and it make me feel like..i grown up..lolz..just flying with captain thun..he is a bit annoying me..cause he keep on bla bla bla + and my right ear get block cause of sick and the pressure..cant really heard what he is talking about..i just keep on smiling..i know i already gik him till zak zak tiu..lolz..but what to do..this aircraft is the 1st time i flew..need sometime to suit it..can't expect me anything right~

See the amount of the bill??LOL it's rm4489 our streamyx bill..we staying in the house..but we using the company line..which cost us rm618 per month..but the weird thing is..we never make payment since last year octorber..but the line still working until now..and another things...we don't have any company name..but they still provide us the company line..there are some problems with this line..we never find an agent help us to apply this line also..but in their system..there is a guy name CHRIS KOH(from k.k somemore) fella as our agent help us to apply the line..=.="

cool stewardess~lol..

2009-04-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Bored..

2009-04-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

Today i can't manage to go flying..cause in the morning i woke up i still feel headache..bit faint..haiz..wasted 1 hours flying d...and then i went to drink half of a big bottle 100plus..then i feel better..a new malay student join ifas...as usual...i ask him why did he choose ifas..lolz...i think the most wrong decision and most regret thing i have done in my life is i came back sandakan and join ifas..anyway...hope tomorrow i recover from sick and i can fly.

Sick..

2009-04-14T19:31:00.001+08:00

Don't know this morning i wake up..my throat feel pain when i drink water..and headache..i think im fever..can't manage to play basketball today...and there a good news from my school...tomorrow im going to fly..but..shit..im sick..i hope tomorrow morning i will be better and fit for flying...cause..it's been 2 weeks i din't fly d...i wanted to try the new aircraft piper warrior..

IFAS SUX

2009-04-13T15:54:00.000+08:00

Still the same..always last minute only tell us that class dismiss today..shit..last nite..i had a nightmare..i dream that i murdered by a guy that i don't know..using a long knife...stab into my stomarch..seriously i can feel the pain..damn real..i though i gonna die..lolz..what a stupid dream..later im going for basketball again..i really wanted to make myself tired...so that i can sleep early and don't think of those problem..here is a funny commercial..so girl..do not sleep in the plane..lolz..

Damn fish..

2009-04-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

Last night me and my course mate we went back to sabah hotel to play pool..miss sabah hotel lots.

Today went to fishing again..a cat was sleeping at the back of me..waiting for meal until sleepy..lolz..but we didn't get any fish today..$@#&^$ the fish..eat all my prawn but never let me catch..1 day i think i will boom the fish..

Today the weather is bad..raining..been fishing there for 3 hours..me and my friends didn't get anything..and this noon...i have lunch with a girl i met in the club that day..she was nice..she even accompany me fishing..and wanted to date me for movie..but i refuse..cause im still loving her..but i will just keep my love for her deep inside my broken heart..

Airline pilot of the year~lolz

2009-04-12T01:49:00.000+08:00

This pilot was drunk..damn funny..

Awesome Marshaller..lolz

2009-04-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

I think if i meet this kind of mashaller.i can't taxi properly.lol.but it's really cool.

Feel so great today..

2009-04-10T21:03:00.001+08:00

This is what i did today..morning wake up at 7am..went to have breakfast with my family on those "shui xiong ohk"..it's really water pollution there..lot of rubbish on the sea..but the food there was nice..the seafood there very fresh..although it just 3 prawns and 3 pierce of fish and 1 "yu fu"..but the soup taste sweet..about the wan tan...it's not that nice compare to usually those i eat...after that we went to a chinese graveyard for cleaning my dad's grave...my dad was pass away for almost 6 years..but i just went there for 3 times..don't know why...i like the feeling of going to graveyard in the morning..i feel peace,calm and comfortable...feel like i wanted to talk to my dad about what happened on me.. after finished cleaning..went back home take shower..and then i went to cut hair..long time never cut this kind of hair jor..i feel great..and then in the evening..i called out my friends..4 of us..went to fishing..the view was quite nice..but unlucky we din't get any fish today..i even fall down on the stone cause of my bait get stuck..cause din't relize the stone is wet...maybe my dad is protecting me...although i fall down but i din't get any hurt...just my pant and my hand get dirty..and then..later at night..my friends date me go to clubbing...they said there are lot of chicks there..but i guess all the chicks is malay(doesnt mean im racist.just im not interested)..anyway..just go out with them to have some fun better than stay at home facing computer the whole day.

Feel bit tired and blue..

2009-04-09T18:41:00.001+08:00

Don't know why today i just went to play basketball...not really feel like wanted to move..maybe im tired..cause i slept at 5am last night....we play with kids...looking at those kid remind me when i was young that time..they are funny and energize..haiz..on june 24th & 25th this 2 days im going to take 12 paper exam..6 paper from malaysia DCA and 6 uk paper..haiz..bit bothering me..cause i hate engine and airframe this 2 subject..not really interested in both of it...

Feeling fresh...

2009-04-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

Today went footsal with my classmate...haiz..footsal really not suit me..cause i don't know how to control the ball...so i went to be keeper..wa..who know they all kicking like wanted to kill you..lolz...my friends still said im lucky cause they never blast me...but don't know why eventhough my position as a keeper i din't move much..but i still sweat a lot and i think i wont join them for footsal again..cause i feel i don't suit it..today wanted to play basketball actually..but a friend of mine din't went to the court..so basketball cancel and this few days my dinner i just take an apple..at the first 2 days i really will feel hungry at the night..but now i feel its ok for me to not have dinner..so everyday i just have my breakfast which at 12pm..after that at night i will just have an apple and then do some exercise..i can feel my stamina increasing..lolz..about my school..the captain syed(cock story teller)..really shit..the way he bluff you..even a 3 years old kid also know he is bluffing talking cock..he said starbuck going to open in sandakan..somemore the location is taman seletar which nearby taman mawar..come on..MC D also don dare to open in sandakan..somemore you said starbuck open in taman seletar??so i asking him "sir..izzit starbuck or startbuck??"..he also blur..lolz....and he keep on asking people make payment but they never did something for us...when people din't make payment he will start saying your attitude got problem..this la that la..really don't need respect him at all...i had already pay more than what i deserve..now i make payment again mean i already give face to you..don't make me piss off and make you heart attack purposely...and here is a funny video that i found from my friend junloOng's blog there..the fast and bi-curious..it's a gay version of fast & furious 4...lolz..anyway..i watched the fast & furious 4 d...it's a nice movie..

Cool steward rapping~

2009-04-06T19:08:00.000+08:00

wow..this steward is awesome...damn..why malaysia don't have such thing..i wish next time when i become a captain i also can rap like him yo~hahaha..today i just play basketball..wow..long time never play..but hmm...not so bad..long time never sweat this much..tomolo will continue play..quite tiring..somemore i don't have basketball shoes..my foot bit pain..but its ok..as long as i sweat lot~feel comfortable...later need to do some pumping and sit up also~haha..haiz..really wanna leave sandakan as fast as possible la..damn boring here..im not belong to this place..

Accept the fate...

2009-04-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

finally..i think i have to let go..not because i can't wait..is i know im not her type..just one thing i still don't understand...cause before we meet..she said im in her heart..but now..im already not in there..maybe im "yong soi"..haha..its time for me to slim down..to diet..its a good motivation also..although i feel dissapointed...but now i know there is no god in this world..not i blaming on what..just i know fate is depend on your own hand..you can change everything on the decision u make..its time for me to let go..i feel im release..

Falling..

2009-04-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

This cockpit(pipper warrior) picture is the one im going to fly with soon..finally im back from kk 2 days ago...the result was...i been rejected by her..seriously i feel so down..losing direction..but there is nothing i can do..i still loving her..i ever think of giving up..as what i did last time..don't wanted to waste my time..but this time..i just can't...im too deep to her..she is dominating me..in front of her..i really bit nervous..my mind was blank that time..she is really charming..i cant even stand look into her eyes for 2 second..cause it's like absorbing me..like taking my breath away..for me i think that day was quite boring for her..cause we just hang around warissan and cp and then we just watched a movie and a dinner together..after that i sent her back..i think if i got a car there and i know kk better maybe our day will be more interesting..but everything had already pass..this 2 days im sick..but im not suffering from sick..just suffering in missing her..her smile her eyes and the way she act..everything is still in my mind..never been this way before..although without her,my life still goes on..but it just incomplete..i think i will wait for her till the day i really get out from her life..maybe i will just become a memory for her..but she will always inside me..

Some picture of the progress

2009-03-24T02:53:00.001+08:00

Finally i had finish done the cookies and tiramisu cake that i promise her..hope she will like it..Just now at the 1st when we talk on phone..i feel quite happy because she talk lot of thing with me..er..maybe that is a lot for me but for her is not??But before we close the call i feel quite down..cause i request a kiss from her and i asked did she miss me not??she reject me and don't want to tell me she miss me not..Is it an early answer for me that she won't accept me??or im too sensitive??Anyway..tomorrow i will go to k.k with hope..maybe im just cheating myself that everything will be fine...just don't want to accept the truth?Tomorrow is her driving test..all the best for her..and i believe that she can do it..

Feeling down..

2009-03-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

i don't know i should call her today or not...cause last night by the way she chat with me..i feel i know the answer d..maybe im too sensitive or too unconfident...but i'm forcing myself to not find her.. make me feel I'm different from usual like without a soul inside me..cause calling her..talking to her everyday is like one of my habit..I'm addicted to her...i know she won't find me even i didn't find her..cause she is that kind of a girl..anyway..i will go to kk next Tuesday..tomorrow i will make some cookies and tiramisu cake as i promise her..still hope that next week everything will be fine..

A sad feeling inside me..

2009-03-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

started from last month..i fall in love to a girl...a girl tat i seem like i know her very well but she don't know anything of me...there was a long story that made me feel this way..i love this girl so much...she is the 1st girl make me feel i wanted to be stable..for me..she is a very cute and pretty girl..but she is the most weird among all the girl i know..i mean in altitude..er like gik people and notty...er..maybe i can said she is special?almost everyday i call her..i try my best to make her laugh..cause i like her smile..of cause everybody like to make the one they love smile and happy..i don't know if she happy with me or not..cause I don't have confident to myself in front of her..cause she is so cute and pretty..but at last thing go smooth as i never aspect as that smooth..when the 1st time she call me dear..i though i was dreaming..she like giving me a surprise..wow .that word really make me happy the whole night..sometimes i asked her did she miss me or some question..she always said "don't know..or don't want to tell u"..she told me i can feel got or know the answer by the way she answer me..but sometimes i feel its sad answer sometimes i feel it's maybe good answer?i don't know how deep am i in her heart..but she is far too deep in mine..even i feel i just cant afford to lost her..today she answered me about next weak if she will meet me or not..when i saw she wrote she will try her best to meet me that time.i feel bit dissapointed and sad..because it make me feel that I'm not important for her at all..i feel I'm just her regular friends..cause as i think if she like me and wanted to be with me she can sure that she will meet me..i know i cant force her to hurry..i know everything is too sudden for her..but i just hope she can think clearly before she make the decision and understand that actually i have been waiting her for almost a year...and then today just now i make a deal with her..if next week after our 1st meet if she accept me we will have 2nd date,if not that's mean she don't accept me..maybe I'm too hurry d..but.i just hope she wont judge my love for her through how long i can wait..because for me..i wont simply said i love u when I'm not fully sure that i love u or not..I'm not forcing u and sorry i make u feel the way like I'm giving u chance but not u...i just can't afford to lost u..i wish that next week we will have 2nd date..I'm just all bout loving u...