A sad feeling inside me..

started from last month..i fall in love to a girl...a girl tat i seem like i know her very well but she don't know anything of me...there was a long story that made me feel this way..i love this girl so much...she is the 1st girl make me feel i wanted to be stable..for me..she is a very cute and pretty girl..but she is the most weird among all the girl i know..i mean in altitude..er like gik people and notty...er..maybe i can said she is special?almost everyday i call her..i try my best to make her laugh..cause i like her smile..of cause everybody like to make the one they love smile and happy..i don't know if she happy with me or not..cause I don't have confident to myself in front of her..cause she is so cute and pretty..but at last thing go smooth as i never aspect as that smooth..when the 1st time she call me dear..i though i was dreaming..she like giving me a surprise..wow .that word really make me happy the whole night..sometimes i asked her did she miss me or some question..she always said "don't know..or don't want to tell u"..she told me i can feel got or know the answer by the way she answer me..but sometimes i feel its sad answer sometimes i feel it's maybe good answer?i don't know how deep am i in her heart..but she is far too deep in mine..even i feel i just cant afford to lost her..today she answered me about next weak if she will meet me or not..when i saw she wrote she will try her best to meet me that time.i feel bit dissapointed and sad..because it make me feel that I'm not important for her at all..i feel I'm just her regular friends..cause as i think if she like me and wanted to be with me she can sure that she will meet me..i know i cant force her to hurry..i know everything is too sudden for her..but i just hope she can think clearly before she make the decision and understand that actually i have been waiting her for almost a year...and then today just now i make a deal with her..if next week after our 1st meet if she accept me we will have 2nd date,if not that's mean she don't accept me..maybe I'm too hurry d..but.i just hope she wont judge my love for her through how long i can wait..because for me..i wont simply said i love u when I'm not fully sure that i love u or not..I'm not forcing u and sorry i make u feel the way like I'm giving u chance but not u...i just can't afford to lost u..i wish that next week we will have 2nd date..I'm just all bout loving u...